It is not your fault Comrade. You were given an OST faction with every advantage and p2w commanders for an extended period of time. The previous patches that heavily favored the OST and shit on the soviets provided you with bad habits, poor micro and a false perception of superiority against the soviet faction.
Many of the great COH2 players refused to exploit the balance patches and had chosen to use the clearly under performing soviet faction. Here the glorious COH2 players had to sharpen their micro skills to 3x that of the ost player. Worked on having 2x the map and situational awareness. Forged their patriotic skills in the fire and ash of an almost impossible scenario. Soviet victory...
My suggestions is this my fellow cabage eating brother. Embrace this hardship. Learn to work harder with your micro. Study the maps and every object on them. Research every strength and weakness of your enemies units. Find the strength to stay focused in the decisive moment when victory will prevail.
If and when a balance issue is determined and fixed for your non soviet faction you will become a truly dominant player on a somewhat level playing field.
Beautiful